I calculated wrong. Thought I’d have at least a day-and-a-half to bask in the glow of the last 11 days. At about 2 p.m. today, I crashed. I cried. I got my feelings hurt. I imagined things–that certain people don’t like me, old friends resent me, I’m spread too thin and pretty much worthless. That sort of thing.

The funk is so bad there’s a physical knot in my heart.

The fam is watching a movie, and I’m going to go upstairs and read my Bible and talk to God. I want to run away and hide; this is the next best thing.

Hopefully by tomorrow’s post, I’ll have beaten the devil back where he belongs.

Love you guys!

17 thoughts on “already??

  1. Megan@SortaCrunchy

    It’s the sleep deprivation. It makes you think things that just are not true. I know of what I speak! I hope you can get lots and lots and lots of rest in the coming days.

    I LOVE these shots and the ones from Swirly Sat. Gabe is so talented! The bluebonnets shot made my heart hurt with Texas homesickness.

    Love, love, love you guys. We still talk about you almost daily. Had friends over for burgers last night, but it just wasn’t the same . . .

  2. Big Mama

    I know if I were you I would have crashed about a week ago. Get some rest and I bet you’ll feel better tomorrow.

    Loved getting to hang out with you, even though it was HOT. Love the pictures!

  3. Kristen

    Hey beautiful friend. I loved reading your travels…things have been insane so my comments have been few…but you have been constantly on my mind and heart…really…I think about you all of the time. I was so thrilled with this trip and ALL the answers to prayer. Encouraged my heart…seriously!!!
    And girl…a crash is so normal at this point. You have been HIGH on life…livin on love…reality crashes in eventually…so tomorrow you will be in the balance…a great place 😉 Call if you need anything…inthe mean time I know I love a and am praying for you. 😉

  4. Holly V.

    Go back and read your posts and comments…..
    See how VERY MANY people LOVE YOU!!!!!

    See all the ways God has blessed you and given you the desires of your heart?

    See how you’ve had these funks before…..and God has pulled you out of the pit….often times using some of your blogging friends to help!

    I LOVE YOU!!!!! Just wanting to encourage you the way your writing encourages me. HUGS to you. Glad you’re home.

  5. Martha

    Sweetie.. I wholly agree with jess.. you’ve been so enormously involved with this previous trip.. and the traveling.. and well.. I’d be doing some crying and coming down too. Glad you are taking time to “talk to God” Because He is near the broken hearted and those with a contrite spirit. Sister.. Granny believes you are tired and weary. Our God gives rest to the weary! I am going to pray for this rest for you. And I hope & pray you aren’t getting sickly too (saw your prayer request on twitter today that Gabe went to bed sick)
    One more thing.. I love you lots

  6. jess

    oh the crash. it always comes after being so amped up & busy & involved & high-on-life. i hate the crash. i feel your pain & i’m praying for you. <3

  7. Kaye

    Please know I am praying for rest for you while you read The Word and also praying Gabe is much better.
    The pictures are wonderful! Thanks so much for sharing.
    Blessings this evening and always,
    Matthew 21:22

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