seek ye first

My dear friend and pastor’s wife gave me a bit of a fright after church this morning, hugging me fiercely, then grabbing my arm and saying, “Is everything all right with you??”

“Yeah. Why?”

“Because all week long, God kept saying, ‘Marla. Marla, Marla, Marla, Marla!’ I was so glad to see your eyes today! You’re sure everything’s okay?”

“Uh… I’m pretty sure.”

And then I went home and thought of a whole bunch of things that are wrong with my life. And I’m totally blaming her.

No, seriously, there’s nothing worth complaining about in my world. So maybe I’m in a bit of a funk. So maybe I’m a little confused and uncertain about what I’m doing/where I’m going/what’s supposed to happen next. So maybe I’ve been grouchy lately (seriously–ask Gabe) for no good reason.

Our Life Group meeting tonight helped put all that blather into perspective. We had an amazing time with Jen, who’s back in the States on a quick 2-week break from her life/work in Cambodia. We each shared a little bit about what’s going on in our lives (it’s been a few weeks since we’ve gotten together).

Then Jen shared more about her work in Cambodia and what God is up to over there. Crazy awesome stuff in a dark and oppressive place. She stressed over and over and over again how much she and her teammates desire to be covered, buried, slathered in prayer.

Then we took turns praying for her, and man, you could feel God’s presence like He was sitting on your lap. I so want to be faithful in praying for her (and her teammates, and her pastor and his family, and the little girls being trafficked, and the men who keep these child brothels in business…).

And I desperately want to be 100% sure (like Jen is) that I’m smack dab in the middle of God’s will for my life (even if what I’m doing is super hard).

And I really, really, really have a burning desire to take a trip to Cambodia.

And I’m applying for my passport tomorrow.

And we’ll see what God has in store.

I really, really, really want to seek Him first in my life.

What’s on your heart right now? How can I pray for you today? Your request doesn’t have to be as heavy as sex trafficking. God wants us to bring all our burdens to Him, big or small.

13 thoughts on “seek ye first

  1. Omom

    How do you just know when we are needing prayer….
    I wanted to email you this weekend and ask if you would keep my husband in your prayers, but I didn’t. He’s really going through something, and part of me wants to really believe this is it, he’s finally going to get it this time, but the other part of me is just thinking anout the heart ache of it when he doesn’t. I know it’s not about him but about what Jesus is doing in his life, but my faith in my waiting is feeling so worn out.
    Thank you so much 🙂

  2. Becca

    Marla I will be praying for you! Pray for us because we working on getting our house sold – the paperwork is under way . . . but now I’m kind of freaking out because it means that moving to the inner-city = reality!

  3. Sarah Montanye

    great post Marla. I really want to be in the center of His will too! My heart is heavy today for that CU grad thats missing. Also for a HS friend that’s is 31 and is dying from stage 3 stomach cancer. He has a toddler and doesn’t know Jesus. Thanks for praying!! xo

  4. Ali

    Praising God that I can call you friend.

    Pray that I am content with where God has me, right now, here, in this moment. That’s an area that I struggle with all too often.

  5. Jen your cousin

    Devin and I went to see Donald Miller speak yesterday and…. WOW. I was super convicted about how often (read: most of the time) I let my fear keep me from thinking about, let along doing, big things for God. I’m just so comfy in my little life and I’m afraid of getting uncomfortable. But I KNOW that “For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will find it.” Lots and lots to think about and then put into action.

  6. Denise

    Dude, I could write you a book on what to pray for for me today, My heart is just heavy and sore and burdened and hurt and sick and blah (my blog post kinda helps describe whats up). Anyways, yes, I can use some serious prayer today!

    Love you

  7. amber

    I’m praying today for a friend that is living in a situation that is not comfortable. And is oppressive. And is hardening her heart.

    An extra prayer for her would be awesome!!

  8. meghan @ spicy magnolia

    I am SOOO excited you’re gonna apply for your passport! That is so awesome and I can’t wait to see what God has in store for you, dear friend! I hope today you see Him so tenderly in all your interactions and happenings. You can join me in prayer over something I’ve been praying about a lot lately for me and my family: that we would love Jesus more and more. Hugs to you!

  9. Sandy

    I am praying for you, you could pray for my granddaughter. She is 3 years old and needs a heart transplant. Her name is Peyton, We are asking God for a miracle and that her heart will be healed. Please join us in praying for her.

  10. Liz

    Marla… Would you please pray for and passon to everyone you know all over the country this request? Our friend, Tiffany Tehan has been missing since Saturday morning. She went out shopping in the morning and hasn’t been seen since… They found her car in a near by park. She is a mother of a 1 year old daughter. She And her husband are both Cedarville grads. You can find more info in
    Please pass this on… We don’t know how far away she might be at this time… She could be anywhere!

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