two steps back

Reminding myself that my God owns the cattle on a thousand hills and a senseless $65 service fee from the heating and cooling company is nothing to Him.

I need some practice trusting, so it’s all good.

I’ll explain in a nutshell and then let it rest. Our parents (both sets) kept our girls while we were gone (trading off and on). The day before we got back, Gabe’s mom brought them back to our house and completely outdid herself. Cleaned, did their laundry, mowed our yard (front and back), made signs for the airport, gave Nina a bath.

A very cold bath. For whatever reason, we had no hot water.

When we got home, Gabe tried to light the pilot on the hot water heater to no avail. He called a service guy who said he could come right then (Saturday) for $97 or Monday for $67. No-brainer. Who needs to shower anyway?

I took a hot shower at our neighbors’ on Sunday morning, and Gabe did a super-fast scrub in our cold water. The girls? They’re still young enough to smell sweet.

Monday.  Heating/cooling company calls. Someone will come between 2 and 4. I go shower-less. He comes. Can’t get it to light. Says, “let me look at your gas. Maybe someone messed with it while you were gone.”

Or maybe the gas company turned it off and locked it because we didn’t pay our bill. Awesome. No warning, no note saying what they did. Awesome.

I pay the service guy (who apologized 10 times for making me pay) $65 and called the gas company. Paid the bill over the phone plus a $50 reconnect fee. Awesome.

They’re coming today (Tuesday) sometime between 7 am and 7 pm. Joy.

Sat down at my computer 10 minutes ago and started cleaning up some of the piles on my desk. Came to a small piece of white paper folded into fourths. What’s this? I ask myself. Unfold it. It’s a notice that our gas has been turned off (on July 12). How in the world did this get here?? Then I make the connection. It was probably in our door when Janelle and the girlies got here Friday. They put it on my desk without reading it (as they should have) and there it sat until after we’d already paid a heating/cooling guy $65 to essentially tell us what the little paper said.


I find myself questioning God with stuff like this. “God, you realize how many starving Cambodians $65 can feed, right?” And then I remember that He is in control, that He owns everything and knows everything and loves those hurting people more than I ever could.

And I trudge on. With joy. And faith.

Photo post tomorrow! I can’t wait!

13 thoughts on “two steps back

  1. Ruth

    “I find myself questioning God with stuff like this. “God, you realize how many starving Cambodians $65 can feed, right?” And then I remember that He is in control, that He owns everything and knows everything and loves those hurting people more than I ever could.”

    Add to that – He is the God who can rain down manna and quail from Heaven, $65 or not. :p Keep focusing on who God is, and live moment by moment on the strength of the Holy Spirit within you – Christ in us, the hope of glory (Colossians 1).

  2. Megan@SortaCrunchy

    Ohhhhh, a $65 investment in your spiritual growth. Love it.

    I am just glad to know I am not the only one who forgets to pay the gas bill sometimes.

    Does your neighbor have a funky, quirky little child-size shower in which to bathe? You know you miss it!

  3. Denise

    Our gas guy came yesterday at 7 am, rang the door bell shut off the gas and ran.. I think he did it in 5 seconds.. one of the kids heard the bell and didn’t get us. A trial in patience for me.

  4. Kaye

    Ouch. Hate this for you so bad. We live and learn, but no matter what, we trust on………
    Blessings today and always,
    Matthew 21:22
    PS Does this require that I start to uncover these piles stacked around me…..d.o. n.o.t. w.a.n.t. t.o. !!!!

  5. Kay

    Oh I so get this. It’s one thing when something honestly breaks down or something really old wears out. It’s another thing when a “twist of fate” so to speak causes you to spend money that you don’t have and you’re really trying to do right, live holy, be responsible, honor God, etc. But you’re right. Even in those times we have to trust Him. Maybe, ESPECIALLY, in those times we have to trust Him.

  6. Jill

    I think it is easy to forget ones daily earthly tasks when your mind was on your upcoming travels and heavenly things. This happens to everybody, God is just reminding you that even tho you were an angel to so many in Cambodia, you are only human at home. Hugs!

  7. Heather Harmon

    I’ve forgotten to pay bills, I really thought I was the only one!! Marla, you help me feel soo normal! I’m glad I’m not the only one who makes mistakes!! I’m so happy you guys had a wonderful trip and your home safely! Enjoy your warm water;~)….you deserve it!

  8. Lisa

    I can’t say it any better than everyone else did, Marla. I will add that God’s been teaching me about false gods a lot lately. Don’t let yourself be tempted to turn to ones like despair and frustration (which is what I would do). Love to you!

  9. Ali

    And let’s not forget the enemy who is after you and Gabe more now than ever as he knows what y’all are doing in the name of Jesus.

    Love you, friend.

  10. katie neer

    thanks for sharing. this makes me feel better…this post of yours and some other things I’ve been dealing with spawned a little financial rant over on my blog. Check it out if you want…sometimes I just feel so convicted about the way I handle God’s money.

  11. Eli Bjorne

    Great post. I think another deep lesson here is remembering to “seek first the kingdom of God… for answers, for solutions.” I know it sounds like Christianese but really, we often forget to check the basics. I think this shows God’s willingness to invest $65 dollars in to your spiritual growth. 🙂

  12. Holly V.

    Maybe the water heater fix it man needed to see Jesus…..

    Or maybe God needed to see how you would handle a situation here in the US of A after a week of ministering in Cambodia….You know how much Satan HATES people who serve Jesus.

    Whatever the reason God uses ALL THINGS for HIS Glory. Someone reminded me lately…..maybe this has NOTHING to do with you…maybe God is using this to teach someone else!!!

    Love you, friend. Praying for a good day for you today.

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