self-absorbed

Ava is completely fine. A majority of her “illnesses” are somewhat contrived. Maybe they feel real to her, I don’t know, but they seem more like a ploy to get attention. It should be fun when she starts school and tries to play hooky every other day.

I feel like I am in my own little world and under the impression that everything revolves around me, me, me. If I could just get my house unpacked, meet my writing deadline, fit in my bridesmaid dress, have a moment of peace and quiet for myself, blah, dah, boobididah!

I want to enjoy each moment and stop thinking about MYSELF. Life has always been soooo much better when I am reaching out to others, loving on my kiddos, meeting my neighbors, writing notes of encouragement…

Okay, so I’ll give myself a little bit of a break, but please. Get over yourself, woman. As of right now, I am DONE feeling sorry for myself, thinking about myself, bemoaning my hard, hard life.

HAVE WE HAD THIS CONVERSATION ALREADY THIS MONTH?

Yes, indeed, we have.

Life is short. Could be shorter than we think. Sounds cliche, but what if today is the last day I have with Gabe, Livi, Ava, and/or Nina? How would I live it differently?

I can’t decide whether to click “submit” or “cancel.” Hmmmm….

8 thoughts on “self-absorbed

  1. scottnjes

    I know where you are right now!!! A BIG dinner!!! I can’t wait to hear about tomorrow! i’m so excited i can’t stand it!!!

    Sometime after saturday is cleaned up and tuxes are returned, check out the new photos on my blog.

    Thanks for posting how you feel about the song!

    (I was tempted to hyphenate the words in these sentences but regretfully did not)

  2. Nixter77

    You mean it’s not all about me?  It’s about you?  But I thought it was all about me 😉  I understand the it’s all about me syndrome very well.  Let’s remember it is all about God and he is in control even when we don’t feel like we know whether we are coming or going – HE DOES!  Yay! What a comfort we can take from knowing that he has it all in his right hand (Isaiah 41:10).  Phew.  I think one of the things I love about your book, your writing and your blogging – is your absolute honesty (glad you hit submit), although it is hard to see friends/family struggling it also bring a sigh of relief to know you are not alone and to know that WE CAN PRAY FOR EACH OTHER.  How cool is that, God gave us great sisters to pray with and for. 

    “For where two or three come together in my name, there am I with them.”  Matt 18:18

    I agree with Faithchick, tackle a few things at a time.  Nixie 😉

  3. rachmckinney

    it is so easy to snowball thoughts , isn’t it? when it is one thing overwhelming you(speaking generally, here) it seems to become all things, doesn’t it? i face this issue over and over . i am thankful for God’s grace! i like faithchick’s advice…breathe in and out deeply . kiss the famil y, have a good cup of coffee(or whatever you enjoy), take a little time to yourself and with God and then go about your day…you will feel much beter! i know busy times=stress often. i’ll say a prayer for you.
    ps, glad you clicked “submit”. it’s nice to know that others have the same issue!

  4. mrsnorthern8605

    I struggle with the whole me, me, me thing too. Sadly, it is a huge part of the human nature! I hope that things will get pulled together for you! And if you ever need any help, I can always help! I got the job at Bed, Bath and Beyond! You can read all the details in my xanga! TTYL!

  5. faithchick

    looks like you clicked submit.
    i would ask you if you’re pregnant but i believe my first encounter with the tavianos was a particular post that would prove that you aren’t.

    hope things look up! i think overwhelmedness can often times turn into just how you’re feeling. Just take a deep breath: in thru the nose, out thru the mouth…go give each kiddo a kiss and a hug and the same with gabe…and tackle 1 or 2 projects.

    okay…now…i’m back to my overwhelming world!! vacations ALWAYS get me stirred up…so I’m going to keep dropping by your site to read the advice i just gave you. 😉 only I’ll kiss my kid & my husband. okay.

    bye!

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