i've got the urge

I’m a swirly-brained kind of girl. You’d be hard-pressed to catch me at a time when there’s not 5 or 65 different things all running around in my head like banshees.

Mostly I don’t mind it. It keeps things interesting.

(and holy cow, if I haven’t gotten interrupted 17 times already, just two sentences into this post!)

So, all those awesome people who can write amazing blog posts on important topics and be eloquent about issues and be effective ambassadors for the Kingdom and all that?

I’m so not in that place right now.

Here’s an update: we’re doing well. And by “well,” I mean that our attitudes are surprisingly (and excitingly!) good, good, good for our current circumstances. On paper, things might look dismal, but WE KNOW BETTER BY NOW. God’s got this. He owns the cattle on a thousand hills. He’s not caught off guard or unprepared for negative checking accounts or borrowing change from your kiddos for gas or having to finally give up health insurance because the premiums became impossible to pay.

We see that light at the end of the proverbial subway. FREEDOM TRAIN’S A’ COMIN’!!!

Gabe is feeling good and learning how to get through the anxiety when it comes. He’s able to work and is diligently completing projects bit by bit.

We’re getting a tax return for the first time in forever. The one good thing about how hard last year was.

And every single day, things are clicking. Ahh, I see why we had to go through that. And that. And that. Ahhhh, I see why I might need that coping skill. And that one. Ahhhhhh, I see how this certain thing helps me empathize with people in this certain situation. And that one. Ahh, ahh, ahh, ahh!!

And I had so much else I wanted to share (some book stuff, some projects I’m working on, heroes I’ve met recently), but now I’m all worn out. Another time.

Now, how about YOU? I miss you!!

So, tell me: What’s the single most pressing thing in your life right now (good, bad, or freakishly ugly)?

21 thoughts on “i've got the urge

  1. wanda

    I totally get you girl! I know stuff! I’ve been in the swirly brain position (it happens regularly)!
    I can’t help but encourage you to hang on! God does own it all and He does have a plan. My hubby & I nearly drowned from a job loss (left a pastorate and are still stuck in that same town!) until he took an IT job. During that crazy time….we bottomed out!
    God sees you! He really sees you!

    Pressing right now?
    My mother is having another surgery for cancer (she has battled 2 this year) and I have left work/home/life behind twice to be with her in Florida (I’m in Indiana). I just can’t afford to to do it again. The hard part…is she is alone. I have an aunt that is helping her but she is really working me over with the guilt. I feel twisted!
    Oh and the cancer is all gone. So, yay to that!

  2. Rachelle

    I don’t know about a most pressing thing in my life this moment but I do know that I have had an urge to pray for others like never before in my life! One young woman in particular has been on my heart big time. She’s had tough life stuff, she and her family recently moved a long way from home(in a city) to our itty-bitty rural community, she is angry. She spews anger and hateful sarcasm on everyone near her zone. She states that she hates God and church and christians. I decided she was MY girl. I started loving her even though we’d never met. I told my high school aged daughters that I had a plan to pray my heart our for her and that I didn’t have a clue how but that I was determined to love her and introduce her to Jesus. It shouldn’t have come as a surprise when her mom called last week and asked if she could come stay with us for a week…but I am awed. Week after next she will be staying with us for a bit. So pressing? maybe. More like an opportunity to love like never before. Now, what kind of cookies would Jesus like? (-:

    1. Marla Taviano

      This. Is. INCREDIBLE. I loooooooooooove watching God work and move in your life and in the lives of everyone you touch, near and far. So blessed to call you friend. Praying for this big-time! xoxoxoxoxo

  3. Lisa B

    Dealing with my health issues, and contemplating moving closer to family. Big stuff! But I can see God’s hand in this.

  4. Jennifer main

    To stay at the most awesome Christian school but pay lots of $$ or homeschool next year. (grades 7,5,1,k) Want to homeschool but scared and not sure I can handle the stress. Torn on this one. Their school is the best ever and they love it…it’s $ issue and a time issue- so much homework, not so much family time in the evenings:( Oh, what to do…(:

    1. Marla Taviano

      We’re homeschooling this year, because school “cramped our style.” 🙂 It’s not easy, but I’m so glad we’re doing it. God will give you the strength to do whatever he calls you to do.

  5. Sheree G.

    Well, right this second, I’m out the door to try and advocate for a young man to be able to attend the same school as my children (not public) which proclaims to be a Christian school. He’s different, he has a sin issue but the church has told him he must wear it like a scarlet letter. He has received death threats at public school, stays in a state of depression and has contemplated suicide, no wonder. Please pray, it breaks my heart that the Bride of Christ has decided who is worthy of Jesus and who isn’t.

  6. Jen Hanson

    So good to hear from you and see a smidgen peek at how God is using your trials. Love you so much and want to talk church stuff with you soon! Most pressing thing in my life – 17 month old twin boys who are all kinds of attitude right now and overwhelming me just about every day. They are lots of fun right now to. But MAN have I had a lot of ” how the heck am I gonna do this mom thing” kind of days recerntly.

    1. Marla Taviano

      I love you too, girl. And you CAN do this mom thing. Those “I can’t do this” feelings will never completely go away. That’s when we lean on the one who created our babies (and by that I mean God, not our husbands) and ask him to show me what to do (and give me the strength and ability to do it). xoxoxoxo

  7. Sharon

    Eeeks. Hard for me to choose one, but I’d say cancer as it’s affecting everything else in my life right now.

      1. Sharon

        Thank you and I believe He will! It’s just all the Docs appts and meds in the meantime that are such a drain. A friend recently told me this will all be a distant memory in a year. I hope that is the case. Feels never ending at this point in time.

  8. Lesley

    My most pressing issue is school. I finish this class on 4/29 and it cannot come too soon. I am running out of steam. I hate to wish my life away but I am really looking forward to the summer and to graduating in may. Honestly, I am just tired.

  9. Addie

    Most pressing issue… our current adoption and how we still need about $14K before we travel sometime between July and September.

    Big hugs to you… love how you are focusing on the silver lining instead of the rain… 🙂

    Also, if you are taking prayer requests… please pray for my friend Kat and family – they were adopting a little boy from an EE country and 6 weeks before they traveled, he passed away, so they are grieving, but continuing on to adopt another little boy… they are 1-2 weeks from traveling and still need a bit over $3K… their story is powerful! Their blog is http://everlastingmomentum.blogspot.com/ – if you want to check it out…

      1. Addie

        Prayers for both are much appreciated… and of course, I will continue to remember you and your family in mine as well… hang in there…

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