blogger's block

Gabe came home from work last night and said, “I was hoping you’d have another blog post up today…”

I shoved the turkey meatloaf in the oven and muttered, “Yeah, well, I have nothing to write about.”

He gave me a stern look that said, “We both know that’s balderdash.”

And it is. But I’ve been in a bad mood. And feeling sorry for myself. And mad at people. People who have done nothing to deserve my wrath.

The good news? I figured out this morning that I’ve been trying to do life on my own. That I was assuming it was just a given that I needed God’s help but didn’t necessarily want to humble myself enough to ask. The past few days have been a long string of failures–bad moods–pity parties–throwing my hands up and sighing.

Enough.

Spent some time in humble repentance/praying for others/reading Nehemiah.

And I do want to get back into a blogging groove, but I’m not sure where to start.

I’m open to suggestions. More photos from Cambodia? More about what we did while we were there? Homeschooling update? Why I don’t give two hoots about the Republican Nominee Hoopla? What our future might look like? Why I quit Pinterest just as the rest of the world was climbing on board? Why I cringe anytime I think about one of the books I wrote?

No promises, but I’d rather write about what YOU care about than what I do.

59 thoughts on “blogger's block

  1. Jennifer Ekstrand

    Personally, I’d rather read about what you care about than what you think others care about. One of the things I love about readubg is that passion is contagious, and reading something someone else cares about convinces me to care.

    I’ve been reading a textbook on parking policy and loving it. I picked it up because someone wrote an article online. Prior to reading the article, I would not have thought that parking cars was a topic that interested me. Now, I’m fascinated.

    Of course, if you always wrote about things that didn’t interest me (and didn’t convince me that they were interesting), I’d probably stop reading, but I don’t see that happening.

    That said, I was glad to see you blogging about books today, and I enjoy hearing people talk about what God is teaching them and doing in their lives.

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  3. Lisa

    These all sound like great ideas. I’m curious about a couple of your ‘against the tide’ sort of comments, so would love to hear about why you aren’t interested in political hoopla and why no more Pinterest, since these are both SO talked about lately, or so it seems.

    My husband has a co-worker who fled Cambodia with his mother and brother (after their father was murdered) and then spent several years in a Thai refugee camp before coming to the states. He and his wife (also Cambodian, but born in the States) have a wonderful young family. I love hearing your stories and your heart for Cambodia. Thank you for sharing them and for igniting a love for that country in so many others.

    1. Marla Taviano

      Give me a little time on the politics/pinterest. I think I’m a little too fragile yet. πŸ˜‰ And there are sooooooo many stories like your husband’s co-worker’s. It’s heart-breaking and is still affecting thousands of people today.

  4. Jolie

    OK I don’t have time to read through all of these comments (POPULAR! πŸ™‚ but I would love to hear why you are cringing thinking about your own writing. That happens to me like… daily, ha!

  5. Rachelle

    I just miss you blogging. Talk about anything and I’ll be here. I an wondering, besides the turkey meatloaf, what kind of food you are cooking for your family after Gabe’s heart attack. Clyde has diabetes, since age 12, and I get really discouraged and bored sometimes with meal prep, trying to cook and eat healthy-er.

  6. Beth in Baltimore

    I appreciate your honesty today, about your need for God. I’m floundering around myself, realizing I’m not as OK as I thought I was and I’m up against a wall and I’m over committed and I just can’t HANDLE my life…you get the picture. WHY oh why do I forget to go to God so often?

  7. Melissa

    I would love to read whatever God lays on your heart! in particular, why you cringe when you think of the book you wrote? (cause curiosity may otherwise kill me)

  8. Gaylene

    I’ll be flippant and say, just write what God wants you to write… I know that is so easier said than done. (People have been bugging me to write more for my blog, but I am working on my dissertation and have a hard time writing anything) Write about the tears sliding down your cheeks, or the smile that winked itself through the pain. Write about something that irritates you, something that warms your heart.

    On another note- our church is starting a resale store (Next STep Store) and being on the committee, I recommended that some of the items we sell come from a place you recommended – Daughters of Cambodian. Can’t wait for the store to open in March. Thanks for the suggestion … from just reading your blogs is where I “got”it.

  9. Jess Carpenter

    I love the comments on what you are reading. And trust me girl, it is refreshing for the real grit to shine through in all of us at times. I remember a lot of talk about the highs/lows and peeks/valleys. After any intense experience, there is a dip and then a leveling off of what you’ve learned and how it all fits into life in future. Wrestle. Write. Wrestle! Also, I personally would vote for avoiding politics b/c if you are feeling grouchy, people will piss you off even more. Don’t you think? Oh, and leave pinterest alone right now, too. Not worth a fight either! πŸ™‚ I also would love to hear more about homeschool. And honestly, I keep wanting to see more pictures of your house & your wall colors. I know that’s silly. But, I catch glimpses! And Cambodia if very interesting. Tell us about the individuals? Why were those certain friends your favorite? I’m really grateful for you.

  10. ali

    Escapism always works for me. Escape reality and come hold my baby. I’ll be hospital-ridden for a few days and would love the company.

  11. Jen Hanson

    Okay… I’m kinda curious to hear about the book you wrote that you cringe at. Mainly because I’ve often thought, “Wow being a writer/blogger could really haunt you if you wrote something early in your life and then had a total ‘come to Jesus’ moment/change of heart/life turned topsy-turvy.”

    Maybe put all your blog post ideas in a hat and draw one. If it strikes up an idea – write about it. If not, put it back in the hat for later and draw out another one.

      1. Beth in Baltimore

        OK, now I’m curious, since Blushing has seriously blessed some friends. But then, they were at that early marriage stage of life when they read it, which isn’t too far from where you were when you wrote it, right? So maybe it’s not as far off as you think.

        1. Marla Taviano

          It’s not the marriage part of it that bothers me (mostly). More the predictable-Christian-churchy-platitudes I was just regurgitating from what I’d read/heard over the years. I’ll try to hash it out in my head and get it in writing. πŸ™‚

  12. O Mom

    write about your daughters. When I’m feeling blah and overwhelmed with my life it always help me to look at my daughters and wonder what God is going to do through them. Sometimes the works that are so pressing on our hearts are so that we just begin the work and then get to watch it unfold through others. I really feel that what you are starting now might just be for one, or all, of your daughters. Your thoughts on that?
    πŸ™‚

  13. Rachael

    Be honest. I have liked your blog for a log time but your sheer honesty of the last month has been so uplifting and has made me love and pray for you that much more.

    We all ask questions and are seeking God’s answers. To do it honestly and openly feeds the soul. It helps us realize we are all God’s perfect version of ourselves when we work on committing our broken selves to Him.

    (Since you seem to not enjoy reading your own writing these days πŸ˜‰ I’d love to hear about what you do enjoy reading: blogs, books, etc.)

          1. Rachael

            Read this today and thought of you…
            http://www.restorationliving.org/journal/2012/2/8/fear.html

            β€œOur deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, β€˜Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?’ Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

            God, I believe, wants his children to flourish, to live from the deepest places in themselves because they are not inadequate. They’re more than adequate. May you learn the counter-intuitive gift of embracing your fear and finding that it is a reliable guide on the path to liberation.

  14. Mindi

    I’d like to hear more about Cambodia. Specifically, maybe more (if they don’t mind you sharing) about the two sweet young ladies who have made this their life’s work, how they were made aware/decided to pursue this. How you and Gabe became involved there. I’m always interested to know what pushes people from awareness and concern to action. Thanks!

    1. Lori Mercer

      Ditto from Mindi. I want to hear about your “why” again and your passion for this Cambodia mission. We heard a lot of why you wanted to go before your trip but show us again with your great writing style (and without disclosing info that puts people in harms way) the ways God delivered on all his promises to you while there and what God left unfinished or unanswered for another time. Show us where all of us first world living American consumers go wrong in our assumptions and understandings (yes, I know this might sting a little and some people might “shoot the messenger”, AKA you, so that is really asking a lot.) I do want to hear what God’s speaking to you in this whole space of short term missions…..how can we turn short (or semi-medium inyour case) term missions into a more effective, efficient kingdom growing event? I could go on with my millions of questions for you but I know you already feel overwhelmed right now. And that is SOOOOOO understandable so just take your sweet Jesus time and I’ll patiently wait to here what he’s speaking to your beautiful world-loving heart πŸ™‚

  15. Shelly

    All of the things in that paragraph, but I would be interested in hearing your new perspective on your books (since I’ve read some of them).

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