love you, Grandma!

My dad just called to tell me that Grandma (Mom’s mom) went to be with Jesus this morning a little after 7:00. Her heart stopped twice, and then she was gone. She had come out of the medically-induced coma yesterday, but wasn’t really alert. I don’t know yet exactly what happened.

I’m shocked, but not. Grandma has had health issues since my mom was a little girl. Some of them very, very, very serious–life-threatening even. I knew this day would come. I didn’t think it would be today. The last time I talked to her was the beginning of January. She was getting ready to come home from the care center where she’d been for quite a few weeks. She was in such high spirits. She loved seeing the girls. She read my new book (yes, the sex one). She loved it–she told Mom she wanted to buy copies for some friends (younger friends, perhaps).

I haven’t talked to my mommy yet. This is what hurts the most–thinking of her losing her mom. They have been through so much. I could never share it all, nor would you believe me if you heard it. The emotions my mom is experiencing right now are multi-faceted. Please pray for her. Mom has four siblings. She had five, but Uncle Greg died of cancer in 2005. They’re super tight-knit–I’m so glad they’ll have each other, even if they live far apart.

I loved my grandma, even though I was never as close to her as I am to my dad’s mom. I truly regret not putting forth more effort in our relationship. But really I have no regrets. She loved me, and I knew it. I loved her, and she knew it. I’m looking forward to our relationship in heaven being anything and everything our relationship on earth was not.

When Dad called me, I felt all alone. The girls are all sick, so I stayed home from church. Gabe went alone. I didn’t know who to call, so I called Gabe’s mom. She and my mom are close friends, and Janelle just lost her own mom in 2005. A couple minutes later, Gabe called. He had just gotten a text message from his mom in church–“Call Marla.” (I don’t know how to text message.) He’s on his way home right now to be with me.

Thank you so much for your prayers. Please pray for my family this week. This hurts. And I’m sure it will hurt more and more as the week goes on. But I’m looking forward to celebrating the life of the grandma I love with some of the most wonderful people in the world–my extended family. God has blessed me immensely.

Love and thanks!
(I guess I don’t really need to sign my own blog…)

24 thoughts on “love you, Grandma!

  1. betterlearning2004

    This is the first I’ve seen this picture – how wonderful that you have this to hang onto!

    I loved what you said at Mom’s funeral – it’s so true for all of us, and we all wish she were still here for our sakes. 

    Keep getting the word out from your heart – that’s what your Grandma would want you to do…she’s cheering you on from heaven’s gates right now….

    We’re so proud of you, and we love all of you.

    Aunt Lisa

  2. tonialynn59

    Love the new pictures on your blog.  The one at the top with the whole family is just adorable!  What a beautiful family you have!  Yes, BD’s Mongolian BBQ and I love it.  I didn’t get to go yet, but we set it up for next Monday.  Soooo weather permitting, etc….  Praying for your family!

  3. gsowell

    Somehow, I missed seeing this post until just now. (((Marla)))
    I have no words. Please just know that I am weeping with those who weep, but my sorrow is for the earth-bound ones. Praise to Him for bringing her through death into life more abundant than we could ever know!

  4. jbnygaard

    My heart just aches for you. For those of us who know what it is like losing someone so close, words can not be expressed to consul you, all I can say is my prayers are with you and I feel your pain. It is very deep. I will be praying for you mom too. Love you bunches!

  5. dnkneer

    Wow – after updating my blog – I read yours. My grandma is very close to passing on today too. My mom said it will probably happen tonight or tomorrow. 

    I definitely will be praying for you and your family. This is a very sad thing to deal with but I’m trying to focus on the wonderful memories we’ve all made with her and the awesome place where she’s headed!

  6. KateLeigh1985

    i’m really really sorry about your grandma. i couldn’t even read your whole post because i just don’t want to think about death and my grandparents.

    you visited my site (through jennikim) and i’m adding you

  7. tonialynn59

    Marla, I’m so sorry to hear about your loss.  I will keep you and your family in my prayers this week.  It is so hard to lose someone that you love so much.  Hold onto the memories you have and I pray that knowing you will see her again one day will help heal the hurt!  Hugs to you and your family, especially your mom!

  8. luvmynoah


    Our prayers are with you and your family.  I’m sorry for your loss.  I’m so thankful you have a supportive network of people around you.  I am also thankful that God is surrounding you with His love and comfort.


  9. Nixter77

    So sorry to hear that beautiful Marsy. I will most certainly pray for you and your family at this time. I pray that knowing your Grandma is with the Lord gives you great comfort. Sending big hugs to you, love ya xoxoxox Nixie.

  10. faithchick

    so sorry, Marla. I will be praying for you & your family. It’s never ever easy. Nothing any of us say is as good as knowing that Jesus will hold & comfort you all.

    hugs & love to you & yours.

  11. bensmomshelly

    Marla, I’m so sorry to hear of your loss.  I’m so glad, though, that you have assurance that she is with our Savior and is in His presence for all eternity. There’s no better place to be!  I’ll be praying for comfort for you and for your family.

  12. rocknnell

    When you called, my thots just stopped….and went to YOUR MOM….and all this is for her.  I went to church and worshipped as I did the day my MOM died….and thot again,  she IS WORSHIPPING in HIS PRESENCE…..SHE IS THERE….. HER faith has become sight too.  NO PAIN, NO PAIN…

    I am crying, because of the thot, she might get to see my Mom…. and maybe she will tell her of your second book….  they would both have fun with that .  Thank the LORD….. we can think of them in HEAVEN…..thank YOU, JESUS.

  13. KmHunsberger

    I wish I had words to help heal your heart. We will be praying for you and yours…especially you and your mom and her siblings. Death is such a difficult thing to encounter. Praise the Lord that you will see her again! My heart hurts for you Marla!

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