My (insert your best adjective here) friend, Ann Voskamp, wrote a post today about homeschooling. It’s not unusual for something she writes to burn a hole in my soul (in a good way). But homeschooling has been a topic on the tips of all the Taviano tongues lately, and she just brought all my thoughts and fears and dreams together in this really amazing way that made my jaw drop. Literally. It just hung open while I read, and my throat was all dry when I finished.
So, then I linked to her post on Facebook, and a sweet little comment thread ensued.
But I still hesitate to talk about this topic for several reasons. 1.) It has the potential to cause a bunch of division and hard feelings. And 2.) I still haven’t worked out how I feel about all of it yet. It’s so complicated. And 3.) etc, etc.
So instead of some big ol’ paragraphs with my philosophies about the schooling of our children with Scriptural references to back it all up, I’m going to just say this. We’re considering homeschooling. Next year or the next or sometime after that. But the swirl in my brain hasn’t let up and settled into a sense of peace yet, and here are a few of the reasons why:
Truthfully? I love quiet free time all by MYSELF. And the thought of all three of my girls being in school from 1:00-3:30 five days a week next year (Nina will be in afternoon kindergarten) is BLISSFUL.
Truthfully? Some homeschooling families rub me the wrong way. The really, really wrong way. Maybe it’s me, maybe it’s them. But it is what it is.
Truthfully? My girls are so awesome (when they’re not busy being not-awesome) that I feel guilty not sharing them with the public school system. Prideful? Perhaps. But it’s how I feel. It’s not like I think they can save public education single-handedly, but I know they’ve made a positive impact in the years they’ve been in school.
Truthfully? I can barely keep up with everything I’ve got going on right now. And what, I’m going to take up the education of my children as a hobby?
Truthfully? Sometimes my girls drive me so batty that I want to run out the door and drive my mini-van into the night.
Truthfully? I don’t want my kids to be nerds. I don’t want to be a nerd. Let me clarify. There is a certain strain of nerdiness that I embrace and another strain that makes me cringe. I don’t know how to explain the difference without hurting people’s feelings.
Truthfully? I’m reeeeeally, really good at being completely passionate about something and then letting it fizzle and die. This personality quirk (flaw) will not work well with such a lofty commitment.
Truthfully? There are some things I care about very, very deeply when it comes to education–learning about other countries and cultures, reading good books, communicating well through writing, learning about the amazing animals God created. The rest of the stuff? Bah.
Truthfully? I feel like homeschoolers need a lot of “stuff.” I don’t want a lot of stuff.
Truthfully? Did I mention that there are some homeschooling families that really annoy me? I get a really bad vibe from them that they are superior and that homeschooling is the only biblical choice and that people who put their children in public schools are less than. I kind of want to shun homeschooling out of rebellion.
Truthfully? I doubt you missed the disturbing fact that most of these “issues” are about me, me, me. I’m not worried about my girls. They’ll bloom where they’re planted. I’m the weak link here.
Tomorrow I’ll share the other side–all the things that make me really excited about the thought of our girlies learning at home.