I’ve got a lot of stuff weighing on my mind and heart. More so than usual. Like I feel literally sick to my stomach over it.
And I can’t bring myself to blog about it yet, because… Okay, scratch that. I don’t think God is giving me the go-ahead to blog about it until my heart is right.
In fact, my heart is pretty mucky and yucky right now. And while I’d love to claim that it’s all just a bunch of righteous anger, I know better. Yes, it might partially be that, but the bulk of it is my own sinfulness.
I really don’t mean to leave you in the lurch. And while I’m not going to hash it all out right now, I can tell you what it’s about. It’s nothing new. And nothing I haven’t blogged about before. It’s just one of those hot topics that brings people out of the woodwork and into the boxing ring. I’ll give you a hint: it’s closely related to this post (which I loved and many of you expressed to me–on facebook mainly–that you most definitely did not love at all).
And the stinky, fleshly side of me is sooooooo tempted to put up a wall between those who see things one way and those who see things the right way. 😉 But I know that’s wrong. And I need to find a way to love everyone (it’s just not coming easily right now).
I want to throw Scripture in people’s faces and stomp around and throw tantrums and gossip about people whose philosophies of life I don’t like and give people the silent treatment and expect people to do everything just the way I do it.
I’m going to keep begging God to clean up my heart. Then maybe we can have a civil, dignified, God-honoring discussion about all of this.
Have a nice weekend.