“Perfect love drives out fear..,” the Bible says. In just a minute, I’m going to sit down and read that chapter in 1 John, because I feel scared.
Before I scare all of you, let me assure you that nothing is wrong–just normal fears. Like, “What would I do if something happened to my hubby or one of my babies?”
Nina slept on the living room floor (on a blanket) for 3 hours this evening. I woke her up at 10 to change her diaper, put pajamas on her, nurse her, and put her to bed. She woke up grinning and cooing and being her adorable self, and I felt my heart just being squeezed to the point of “I can’t take this anymore.” Her cuteness was just about more than I could bear. I just wanted to fly up to heaven and take my little family with me, so I never have to worry about something happening to one of them.
I read once that the decision to have a child is to make the choice to forever have your heart walking around outside your body…or something like that. Sometimes my heart just aches with love for my little girls.
I know that everything will seem better in the morning. It’s amazing how darkness intensifies fear. Just goes to show that Satan is behind it. Off I go to read promises from God Himself that He loves my babies even more than I do. And that if something ever did happen to one of them, they would be safe in Heaven with Him, and He would get me through it somehow, some way. Lord, help me to enjoy each precious second I have with those I love.
We’re going to the zoo tomorrow! Thank you, Lord, for the beautiful weather!