“Perfect love drives out fear..,” the Bible says. In just a minute, I’m going to sit down and read that chapter in 1 John, because I feel scared.

Before I scare all of you, let me assure you that nothing is wrong–just normal fears. Like, “What would I do if something happened to my hubby or one of my babies?”

Nina slept on the living room floor (on a blanket) for 3 hours this evening. I woke her up at 10 to change her diaper, put pajamas on her, nurse her, and put her to bed. She woke up grinning and cooing and being her adorable self, and I felt my heart just being squeezed to the point of “I can’t take this anymore.” Her cuteness was just about more than I could bear. I just wanted to fly up to heaven and take my little family with me, so I never have to worry about something happening to one of them.

I read once that the decision to have a child is to make the choice to forever have your heart walking around outside your body…or something like that. Sometimes my heart just aches with love for my little girls.

I know that everything will seem better in the morning. It’s amazing how darkness intensifies fear. Just goes to show that Satan is behind it. Off I go to read promises from God Himself that He loves my babies even more than I do. And that if something ever did happen to one of them, they would be safe in Heaven with Him, and He would get me through it somehow, some way. Lord, help me to enjoy each precious second I have with those I love.

We’re going to the zoo tomorrow! Thank you, Lord, for the beautiful weather!

7 thoughts on “scared

  1. Lani Lasso

    Very informative post with some fascinating suggestions! Can’t say I completely agree with all that you have written here, but there are a few relevant suggestions you have emphasized that can be quite usable on gardening and related topics. Keep offering more ideas on this topic and related subjects, as there are many out there like me who are working to get to know the positives and negatives.

  2. svdbygrace82

    So my boss came into work this morning & we were awaiting the news of the gender of her first baby.  After she told us she started crying, apparently there could be some problems with carrying the baby and what not, to put it in a nut shell.  I happened to read your post yesterday afternoon & thought it would be perfect to encourage her, so I copied it into a word file and gave it to her before I left work.  It was a great way to plant a seed in a seeker’s life.  Just wanted to say thanks for sharing, and let you see how God has used this for good. 🙂

  3. seefaithchick3" target="_blank

    hey there 🙂

    I’ve never had better-than-sex cake. It made me laugh to hear you talk about better-than-sex garage sales! I hope I find some of those! 🙂 I like things dirt cheap! 🙂

    As for gardening, I’m hoping that it’s not one of those desires that seems great, but doesn’t go too far. I wonder if it will be too much work & that it’ll become easier to pick out the perfect bell pepper at the store…we’ll see…i still have a whole year to roll the thought around in my head. 🙂

    and…I realized I never replied before about the e-mail thing…sorry about that! You should be able to see pictures if you go here. Let me know if it works. 🙂

    You must be home from the zoo now…was it fun???? It was a beautiful day!! 😀

  4. biblestorebrowser

    I’ve been there lately, too. Especially after hearing a sad story I won’t share, but I will say that God has been glorified in it over the last couple years since it took place. That’s what I’ve been thinking about. If anything were to happen, it would ultimately be for the glory of God, and everything will be all better in Heaven.

    Hope you had a great time today!

  5. hcole86

    Wow. I don’t know what it’s like to be a mother, but I definitely know what it’s like to be a daughter. A much-loved daughter at that. Your post was a rebuke for me. I don’t speak to my parents enough and they have done everything for me. Thank you.

    I will pray for your fears; that the Lord will take them away. How blessed you are to have such a cherished family!

    When are you going to post a pic of your new do?

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