A few years ago, I changed Luke 10:41-42 in my Bible to read, “Marla, Marla,” instead of “Martha, Martha.” Sadly, it still holds true today.
“Marla, Marla,” the Lord answered, “you are worried and upset about many things, but only one thing is needed. Mary has chosen what is better…”
My Bible study homework today was on that passage. (Are you trying to tell me something, God?) So familiar, yet so convicting. Luke 10:40 says, “But Martha (Marla) was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made.”
The Greek word for distracted is perispao, meaning, “to draw different ways at the same time, hence to distract with cares and responsibilities.”
And the Greek for preparation? Diakonia, meaning, “service, attendance, ministry.”
Basically, all these things I’m doing are swell. Ministry-related even. Helping all manner of people. Yet still distracting from an intimate, abiding (sitting, staying, remaining, being. That’s not Greek, just off the top of my head.) relationship with Christ.
I’m loving Hope Lives. From page 29, “I’ve managed to create just the right combination, a one-two punch, to keep my love [for the poor] stifled: individualism coupled with busyness.” Me too.
And then she blasted me (bless her heart): “‘Busy’ is our banner. And I think we’re proud of it.” Ouch. (There’s so much more. You need this book.)
Kristin asked for some brave people to admit some hard things on her blog today. And I have to admit that busy is my banner. Activity and movement and information and achievements and blog comments and (positive) book reviews and blah, blah, blah are what drive me most of the time. Do, do, do, do! Busy, busy, busy, busy! I’m exhausted, and it feels exhilarating (in a weird, twisted sort of way).
As much as I’d like to think otherwise, my life is an awful lot about me.
As much as I hate to admit it, I don’t live like I believe Jesus’ words to Mary: “Only one thing is needed.”
Lord, help me believe. Help me cling to you alone. Everything else is distraction. But I’m addicted to it. Only Your Holy Spirit can break me of my habit. And sadly, I don’t even really want to quit. Please help me.