I’ve been sitting here for several minutes, left elbow on my desk, chin resting on my hand, wondering how to write a blog this morning without whining. I’m in a very whiny mood. I have absolutely no reason to be whiny and every reason to be joyful. Yet still, here I sit.
Gabe would like it if I would snap out of it. We spoke about 30 words to each other all night (nothing was wrong, we weren’t not speaking, I was just….who knows)
Me: (sitting down on steps, putting my head in my hands) I can’t do this anymore.
Gabe: You can’t do what anymore?
Me: Whatever it is that I do.
Yesterday just felt like headless chicken day (as most days seem to feel lately). I did spend some quality time outside with the girls after school. That felt good–physically, mentally, emotionally. The feeling didn’t linger once we were back inside though, and everything started looming over me again.
I’m so blessed. I know this. Lately, though, it doesn’t take much at all to make me forget that. I need to spend more time in God’s Word. That’s the only place I’m going to find perspective–the right perspective.
I fell asleep on the couch last night after I put the girls to bed. Slept from 8:30-9:30. Gabe woke me up I tried to do a few things on the computer. Laid my head down on my desk. Almost fell asleep. Decided to go to bed at 10. Left everything undone all over the place. That was a good decision. But now I have a lot to do.
Gabe got a promo kit in the mail yesterday for the movie Expelled. Have you heard of it? It comes out in April. It’s a documentary by Ben Stein on the case for creation basically. The trailer was amazing. Interview clips with scientists who have dared to suggest there might be a “designer” out there, and they’ve been criticized, ostracized, fired, banned from the science world. So crazy, so sad. I’ll definitely go see the movie. More on that later.
I’ve been working on the in-law book in bits and pieces. I know some of your situations have changed in the past 2 years, so I’ll be asking for updates. (if you know your situation has changed and want to give me a heads-up, that’s cool) If anyone has a funny/pathetic story to share about meeting your in-laws for the first time, I’d love to hear it. (comment or message me) I’ve got some good ones.
There will be a lot of name-changing in this book. If you say something positive, I’ll leave your name in. Negative or questionable–your name will changed or be left out entirely.
One of Gabe’s former co-workers is coming over at 1:00 today to pick my brain about writing. I don’t know that there’s much in my brain to pick right now–a whole lotta mush. Pick away though!
I know I had more to say (I did yesterday too and remembered five minutes later), but the mush thing is my reality at the moment.
I think I’ll post a Count-My-Blessings Blog later on today. Have a good one!