wish i could turn back time

Isn’t that a song? Well, whether it is or isn’t, it’s not even really what I meant, but I’m too tired to figure out how to say what I mean instead. Something along the lines of having more time, making more time, slowing down time.

That wasn’t so hard. Why do I make things so hard?

Let me start over. Without deleting any of the nonsense I’ve already written. Because that would just be too easy.

Somebody make me go to bed.

Anyway.

I realized today why I’ve been putting off making even a rough itinerary for our trip to Cambodia. Yes, there’s the huge element of wanting to let the Spirit lead us. But there’s also the fear that we will never, not ever, not even in five whole weeks, be able to fit in everything we want to do and all the quality and quantity time we want to spend with all the people we love/plan on loving.

Ava and Nina and I Skyped with my friend Keri in Singapore this morning (CANNOT WAIT TO HUG HER NECK), then I chatted with Yvonne on Facebook (CANNOT WAIT TO HUG HER NECK), then Ava and I met with John and Seth at the Asia’s Hope office, and tomorrow we’re meeting with our friends Jen (who lives in Cambodia) and Kim (who has been there 3x).

And I’ve been fighting off feelings of sadness all evening. Sad about not being able to spend enough time with everyone and sad about having to leave them to come back home.

WE AREN’T EVEN THERE YET. And we are staying for FIVE WEEKS.

SNAP OUT OF IT, CHICA.

Sorry, just a little positive self-talk.

So, I would love your prayers for wisdom. That Gabe and I would be united as we plan our itinerary. That my mind and heart would be freed up to enjoy every single minute of our time and not be constantly worrying if we’re doing enough here, staying long enough there, making enough people happy.

I want to be so in tune with God that I can just sense what he wants us to do at each turn.

That’s all.

Oh! THANK YOU to everyone who has given to the Asia’s Hope/Taviano Activity Fund so far. As of 11:30pm Tuesday, we have a little over $300. Woot woot! Our goal is $500, and I’ll let you know when we get there. (Scroll to the bottom of this post to donate tax-deductibly through PayPal.)

Thanks, friends! I think some of you deserve an award for making it all the way to the end of each post every day (or maybe there’s no one who fits that description–don’t tell me if there isn’t).

Going to bed now. Goodness.

7 thoughts on “wish i could turn back time

  1. Cheryl Pickett

    I’m here too 🙂 Also very excited for you and I know that you will get done what needs to be done, see who needs to be seen and have some extra great stuff on top of that. No worries!

  2. Claudia

    Sounds like the last few weeks may be catching up with you…despite what you need to get done, PLEASE get some rest so you can truly enjoy what God has in store for you through this trip!

    Praying for you, my friend!

  3. Ruth

    What?! I look forward to your posts and love reading them as soon as I see the tweet each night. 🙂 Praying for wisdom for your itinerary. It’s hard to remember to enjoy each moment, but I’m glad you are doing your best even now. So excited for you all!

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