i saw something today

He had a blank look on his face, staring off in a different direction than the one he was walking. As our tuk-tuk got closer, I realized he was blind. And missing one leg. Hobbling on crutches, moan-chanting something I couldn’t understand.

A little boy walked in front of him. He might have been six, seven. He held a metal bowl, begging for money.

I felt a pang in my heart at their sad plight. What kind of hopelessness and despair does one feel when he’s blind and mangled, dependent on a little boy to beg for money for his food?

We see a lot of hard things in this place, this city. I don’t really know what to do with it all. I pray for people as I walk past them. I smile and sometimes wave.

I have yet to give to beggars (my heart says do it; my head says, “Will you be helping or hurting?”). But my Bible said (2 days ago when I was reading in the morning) to give to those who beg for money (I’ll look up the reference).

So I’m going to start giving. And praying/navigating my way through it.

As my eyes saw this man & boy and my heart turned to prayer, I noticed something I hadn’t before. And my heart lurched, sick.

The little boy had green rope, twine wrapped around his wrist, and it led from him to the man behind him, like a leash.

He was leading this man (his daddy?) like a dog, and it broke my heart in two. It hurt so much to think of how unfair this is, how wrong, how sad, how awful. It shouldn’t be. This shouldn’t ever be.

I only watched them for a few seconds total (we were driving past them and didn’t stop), but it seemed like a lifetime.

I prayed for them on the way to church. I thought of them while I sat in church. I think of (and pray for) them now. If I see them again, I will do something to help. Give, pray, touch, ask for healing.

Jesus, I want to be your hands and feet. I want to respond, to love like you would have, like you do. I need your help.. Please be near. Amen.

5 thoughts on “i saw something today

  1. Sharon

    Praying for these two specifically, and for you. You have such a way with words, Marla. I could totally picture this sad scene in my mind as I read your post. Heart.breaking.

  2. Gwen

    Yes, it’s hard. Realize you aren’t going to be able to help everyone you come across and that’s hard to take too, because we just want to give them all we have – -they have nothing. I have been where you are, so I’m speaking from experience, it breaks your heart, hurts, etc. Just keep doing what you are doing – PRAYING for God to direct you to the ones he wants you to help and he will. I will be praying for you too. HUGS!!

  3. MyriAM

    Unbelievable. Help us Lord and break our heart over what breaks yours!

    We pray with you and for you and the hurting.


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