I’ve got three reasons for writing this post.
1.) I’ve been tempted several (hundred) times in the past few months to tone down the honesty/vulnerability on my blog. Nope.
2.) I’m declaring this blog post (it won’t be the only one) my Deuteronomy (something to refer to in the near–or not–future as a reminder of all God has done and will continue to do).
3.) I love it when y’all share in our excitement (and pray for us), so I want to keep you in the loop.
When I think about our Cambodia trip, I think one of two things:
1.) I am so stinking excited about this/can’t believe it’s finally going to happen!
2.) How on earth is this all going to work out??
(If you are a Lover of Lists, this post will be right up your alley.)
Here are the amazing things that have happened since I first announced we were going back to Cambodia:
1.) We sold our house and got a big tax return. Unbelievable God-story here.
2.) We paid off thousands of dollars of medical bills and a chunk of Gabe’s school bill.
3.) We’re almost to the point where we can pay all of our monthly bills on time.
Here are the not-so-fun things that have come up:
1.) Our van over-heated to the tune of a $650 repair bill.
2.) And Gabe drove his 2-door Civic (that we’ve been cramming into for the past 6 weeks while we saved up the $ to fix our van) to pick it up today and left his car because it needs a new timing belt. Sigh. But SO HAPPY to have our good ol’ van back.
Here’s what needs paid off for us to be 100% debt-free:
1.) Orthodontist: $1700.
2.) Gabe’s school bill: $3600.
3.) One last medical bill: $335.
(It’s so close I can taste it!!)
We have $1930 in our Cambodia Fund (enough for approximately 1 plane ticket). Here’s where that $ has come from:
1.) Girls and I put all our b-day/Christmas $ in.
2.) Half of the profits from The Dancing Elephant since March 3.
3.) Several gifts–from $2 to $110–from amazing friends who’ve said things like, “So excited you’re going back to Cambodia!” And “We love you!” And “Cambodia ever closer!”
The optimistic (and also trusting) side of me says:
1.) This is so stinking exciting!
2.) This is really going to happen!
3.) Thank you, Jesus!!!
The pessimistic (read: doubting) side of me says:
1.) How are we ever going to get enough money in time?
2.) How on earth do I find the time to be a good wife/mom/teacher/friend/vegan chef AND love our neighbors AND write blog posts/e-books AND make enough money writing/editing to save up for our trip?
3.) We don’t have health insurance. What if something goes wrong? What if Gabe starts to get worse again instead of better?
4.) What if our vehicles die for good?
5.) What if if if if if if?
So. In light of all that, this is my plan:
1.) Trust God.
2.) Don’t worry.
3.) Work hard.
4.) But also rest.
5.) Stop feeling guilty when I can’t be all things to all people.
6.) Learn as much Khmer as I can.
7.) Dream BIG!
8.) BE EXCITED about going back to CAMBODIA!!