life, in spite of me

What a great title for a book, eh? And the subtitle: Extraordinary Hope After a Fatal Choice. Wow.

I’ll tell you what. This book was hard to read. But I’m glad I read it.

The premise? Seventeen-year-old Kristen can’t take another minute of the emotional pain in her life. Suicide seems like her only option.

I know this is an awful question to ask, but I also know it’s not that far-fetched. Have you ever thought about how you would kill yourself if you decided you couldn’t face life any longer? Pills? Gun? A rope?

When I was in high school, a girl on my basketball team tried to commit suicide (pills) and it didn’t work. The second time she tried, it did.

A friend’s brother shot himself.

Horrifying. Sad. So, so sad.

But Kristen? In the book? She laid down on railroad tracks. When a train was coming.

And she lived. Her legs were completely severed from her body, but she lived.

I spent the rest of the book wrestling with God’s miraculous rescue of her life and the bang-your-head-against-the-wall WHY DID YOU HAVE TO GO AND DO THAT?! Your legs are gone. They didn’t have to be. Why did you do that? Why?? WHY??

Yet, God has a plan. What Kristen intended for death, God used (and is using) to bring her more life than she ever had before. Unbelievable. But true.

You should read it.

And if you happen to collect cornflower blue books, you’ll be happy to know that the spine is the most delightful shade of it.

p.s. Once again, I received a free copy of the book from the publisher, but no $ or other fun prizes, and the words in this review came right out of my very own head.

4 thoughts on “life, in spite of me

  1. Liz

    My 10-year-old son’s Karate instructor for the last five years shot and killed himself in April. His girlfriend, another karate regular, killed herself a week ago. I struggled so much with how to explain it even though I didn’t even really know any details. We don’t talk about it much because Josh doesn’t really want to but this looks like a great book to read to gather some insight when he does have question.

  2. Jonna


    In the small Ohio town that my children and I reside, we have personally known 4 young people (3 of them teens)who have taken their lives. All of them have been in within the last 2 years or so. There are so many teens in this area that are friends of my kids who have contemplated or attempted suicide… some of them multiple times. I think I need a copy of this badly!!

  3. Elizabeth

    I’ve been wanting to read this book. My library doesn’t have it yet (they don’t have anything I’ve wanted to read lately), but I’m going to find another way to read it.

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