Tuesday, September 25th was a hard, hard day.
Bottom line? After months and months of Gabe’s anxiety and bills piling up and dreams being shattered and back-to-back speaking weekends (super stressful on Gabe since the anxiety started) and miscommunication abounding and anger (lots and lots of anger) setting in and blah, blah, blah, we hit a WALL.
Like, a “how is our marriage going to survive THIS?” wall.
We left our counseling appointment two weeks ago feeling pummeled and defeated and hopeless. I felt so, so bad for our counselor (who is amazing). He had to be thinking, “Wow. There’s not a lot of hope for those two.”
We went from at-each-other’s-throats and spewing vitriole to talking and hugging and other stuff married people do when they like each other a lot.
And like I told our counselor today, no, things aren’t perfect. No, our bills aren’t all paid. No, Gabe’s anxiety isn’t all gone. No, we aren’t all lovey-dovey all the time (Gabe’s even a little peeved with me at the moment–sigh).
But I feel hope. And I see light. And I know, know, know that God hasn’t given up on us.
And while I desperately want to be in Cambodia right now, God is giving me really cool opportunities to bless my Cambodian peeps from right here. Raising $ for the Boys’ Center, helping five Cambodian friends go on a mission trip to India. Livi and Ava are selling something fun. And not-as-crafty Nina found something she could do to help too.
And yeah, that’s where we’re at. And I can’t complain.
On a lighter note, two real-life girlfriends, who listened to me on the radio today, had this to say: “Even though that’s not what your voice sounds like in real life, I’m enjoying listening to you talk.” And this: “You sound really sexy. Not until now did I realize you have a sexy voice.”
As Gabe (and my children will tell you), I have a normal voice and a “phone” voice. And, apparently, the interview was 100% phone voice. What. Ever.
Hey, it’s not too late to claim your free e-book (EVERYONE’s a winner!). And you have until midnight tonight to enter to win a Starbucks gift card and a book of your choice (you get 5 entries just for listening to the interview).
Have a great Thursday, friends!