swallowed pride

I cried some humiliated tears tonight. Before that, I said some angry words (including “hell” and “freaking”). Before that, I thought some sad thoughts, some hurt ones, some angry ones, all mixed together. It seems silly now. The past 10 days have been kind of emotional. A week ago Sunday, we got the shocking, heartbreaking news that my niece (29 weeks in utero) would most likely not survive outside her mama’s womb. On Monday, we …

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jubilee kate peters {6.30.14}

Oh, Jubilee. Beautiful, precious Jubilee. I love you so much my heart hurts. Not a second goes by without a thought of you. I burst into tears over and over again just when I thought I was all cried out. Thank you for letting me tell just a piece of your story from my perspective, because your mommy and daddy are too weary and heavy with grief to do it, and we want the world …

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but how are they gonna be doctors??

There’s a smile on my face as I type. It’s actually more of a grin. With a hint of an eye roll and an almost imperceptible shake of my head. Do you want to know what my all-time favorite question/concern about my unschooled-with-no-current-plans-for-college children is? (And no, it’s not the one about socialization. It’s not the one about math either.) It’s this: But what if one of your girls wants to be a DOCTOR? This …

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her tender heart

My middle baby turns 12 in 3 days. On the one hand, where has the time gone?? On the other, how in the world is this beautiful, mature young woman only 11?? Last night, we were casually discussing plans for her birthday, and I could tell she was about to cry. We sat down on the couch to talk about it some more. Her original plan for her b-day was to make a million cupcakes …

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perspective

I usually love Mondays. When you work from home and unschool your kiddos, there’s nothing to dread about the start of a new week. Peaceful, quiet mornings after loud, boisterous weekends. Sigh. This particular Monday morning has me kind of down in the dumps though. Want a laundry list? I have a cluster of three spider bites on my left thigh. Hot, swollen, itchy and a good three inches in diameter. We’re low on food …

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still (!!!) decluttering {enough, day 34}

I don’t even know how it is POSSIBLE that I filled two whole bags (+ a stack of school books) for our Big Cambodia Yard Sale today. It felt SO GOOD. What did I get rid of? A pair of soccer cleats Livi had passed to Ava and Ava outgrew (Nina has retired from soccer). A pair of Converse All-Stars (same story–minus the part about Nina’s retirement). 9 school books (I finally got rid of all …

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tears of gratitude

Lots of joy and thankfulness flooding my heart tonight. The same heart that sank to my knees today when I came home from picking up yard sale donations from my old neighbor (thank you, Allison!) to find Ava in tears and Gabe very, very upset. I’ll leave out some sordid details, but there was a water fight and a bully (17 years old & bigger than Gabe), and we’re all working our way to forgiveness (at …

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oh, short-term mission trips. {smh}

I’ve written about my complicated feelings concerning short-term mission trips several times. Here, here, here, and here for starters. I even wrote an e-book about the two short-term (1-week & 5-week) trips we’ve taken to Cambodia. I can’t defend short-term trips across the board (because I’ve seen/heard some not-so-great stuff), but our family has tried our very best to make sure we’re doing things right. Not perfect (no way) and not to everyone else’s approval standards …

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apart from the gospel {enough, day 33}

At this beautiful stage of life, when all my people tend to sleep in more often than not, I can get up at 7:30 and be alone with God for a bit. I always start off by writing in my journal. Thoughts, prayers, concerns, thanks, whatever. And call it OCD (or just good documentation), I write the date and time before I start. Then if I write additional things that day, I just write the …

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a recap {enough, day 32}

Hey, friends! Took a few minutes to make the Enough Experiment challenges accessible to anybody who wants to give ‘em a shot. It’s never too late! Casting the Vision {day 1} No New Containers!! {day 2} Your Music Collection {day 3} Out-of-Control Holiday Decor? {day 5} Ready for the Bathroom? {day 6} Why Purge? {day 7} Book Hoard Much? {day 8} So Many Craft Supplies {day 9} Helpful Purging Tips {day 10} De-Cluttering Your Kitchen {day …

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